MY DIARY

Today im really sad my sweet little angel -my pinoo has gone back to her place two thousand kilometers away from me!! I"M quite in a mood to fight wid my God for all the injustice he has done to me!! I started cursing him first for why my pinoo has her workplace in chennai? I thought beyond and realized that God is really cruel to me and i turned more aggressive. I worked really hard during my 12th but still failed to cross 80%. I got a seat in dental but due to some unavoidable reason i can't join it n now im pursuing the course that i never intended to do .. Than in my sulk i turned to a mirror and saw im fat i again cursed god even more for that. I went on a rampage n sat down on my dinning table the found the food is not of my choice than what ?no doubt i again cursed God!! On thinking over all the injustice that my fate maker has rendered on me ,tears rolled down from my eyes and i cried really uncontrollably for many hrs.

Than suddenly i thought that someone has come near to me whom i can't touch but feel the presence. I realized my room was imbued with positive vibes and someone has answers for all my regrets. That was my inner self!! My inner self said me to SMILE for all that GOD has given to me. I realized im really lucky that my pinoo has a good job in the country where many are still unemployed and now has lost all hopes to get even one. I contrasted myself with those students who has attempted to commit suicide after they failed im xmas.Poor thinks that its the end of their lives. I gradually realized that im enjoying my course and now is quite happy with it and now i think its much better than opting a five year course in medical. For my fat solution!! who says im fat ?? I thanks God that my situation is millions times good than those who are physically handicapped or are visually impaired. those who have to depend on others n on their family members' for each step the take.. I have a mom who prepares yummy food for me and God as given me and my family enough resources that we can eat whatever we want.My inner soul contrasted me with the poor child at traffic signal who begs for a penny to have a one time meal. I condition is many times better than those who have starvation death..

After listening to my inner soul i realized what a fool i was?? My god has given me so many precious gift that i can't valued. Really what i fool i was?? I wiped off my tears Prayed and ask sorry from my lovely kind God for my fool thoughts.. I have so much to relish -resources,education and a wonderful family!! What more i can ask for?? I have just one word to say to Almighty that i "THANKYOU GOD!!"